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Leland Katz's avatar

A LIFETIME OF LOVE

My Kari.

My first love.

Just fifteen.

My high school sweetheart.

My Judy.

My second love.

From eighteen to eighty.

Until death did us part.

My world shattered.

Poetry saved me and

a miracle happened.

My Kari.

My third love.

Joy returned.

Kari is my past and my future.

We are 15 and 16 again.

Plus 70 years.

And we will be together

as often as is humanly possible.

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Al Bellenchia's avatar

Emerson says that “The purpose of life is not to be happy. It is to be useful, to be honorable, to be compassionate, to have it make some difference that you have lived and lived well.”

To serve others you must put yourself forward. For introverts this is hard. But opening up and engaging with others as they are and where they are, as exhausting as it can be, is fulfilling like no other state of being. ✌️🖖

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Jim Sanders's avatar

I replied to this without reading correctly. Sorry. So I deleted my reply. However, as much as I like the Transcendental movement, I disagree.

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Fred Basset's avatar

It is almost eerie how much some of your posts resonate with me. This one is like you see into my soul.

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Stanley Wotring's avatar

Good advice!

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William Weaver's avatar

Wise words. Thanks for sharing Dr. Deborah!

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Jim Sanders's avatar

It is not so black and white—as very little is. I’ve always been willing to open up. However, others are not always willing to listen.

People I have known love to talk, talk, talk. Yet, seldom are they willing to listen.

The truth for me is problematic. I listen to others until my mind revolts and I go off daydreaming.

Sorry, but the writer Christofer Frye called it for me when he described the constant chatter of those around us as the ceremonial beating of the humdrum.

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Jim Sanders's avatar

On morning walk to quietude

Neighbors home bursting with escaping water

Cooling the black asphalt with spray

From his broken landscape hose

A single dove enjoys the flow

Out the gate and onto the street

Tree lined with full bush mesquites

Natural, not shaved by loud

Trimming tool of the landscapers

I hear birds singing with a chorus

Of speaker blare

providing needed directions

To the many women and single man

In their aquatics class

And the distant baseline from

Morning traffic

I watch the multitude of lone bicyclist

Slight grumbles passing the group ride

Occupying the breadth of the streets

Chattering as a flock of ducks in bliss

My park ramada is occupied

The female says a Dolorous hi

Her husband buried into his cell

Reading news in his American flag shirt

As their motorized scooters sit by

Patiently waiting to be of use

The city parks and recs arrives

In a truck and wagon like

A thunderous tank

To help restore the peace and tranquility

Of the section of watered grass

An island at the edge of nature.

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Jim Sanders's avatar

From a few years ago:

Two poems I wrote a few years ago:

My Odyssey

I have listened to the sirens’s song

I have playfully ridden the waves

Of temptation with their enchantment

I have felt the bodies of many Circes

Delaying my journey home

I have navigated between Scylla and Charybdis

Losing many friends in the vortex or picked off

By the attacking talons of American culture

Now, alone, I find so many vortexes

And find myself swirling around

In the flux whirlpool of society

Trying to suck me into the drain

To be deposited into the cesspool

Of American greed and ignorance

A steel tank constructed capitalism

How is your air?

Tree branch fractals are singing a dirge

This morning in Tucson

Accompanied by an orchestra

Of wind chimes

Singing on the windy breath

Of the earth’s lungs

Bereaving the Smokey deaths

Of California trees and homes

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Bill Alstrom (MA/Maine/MA)'s avatar

Another fine letter. Two things:

First, I am embarrassed to say that it took me 50 years to learn some of the lessons in your essay about selecting a partner. I am afraid I was a classic case of a guy thinking with the wrong head.

But...this time I built on a friendship to arrive at an excellent relationship. We already had the foundation of trust, respect, common values and LIKE. I had always had had an "eye for her". But I knew that perhaps this time I was also using my big head as well.

Second, please don't disparage horse manure. It is the perfect addition to an organic garden. /s

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Jane Baker's avatar

I tried to share but the rest of humanity responded,.."it's OK we're good,you keep it for yourself",the unspoken sub-text being of course..." we don't want a bar of you and by not accepting anything you offer we keep you OTHERED and not acceptably Human which is how we like it. Nietschze has very shrewd things to say about the psychological damage s belief system based on Sharing ie Christianity does when SHARING is knocked back. It's an exclusionary measure and essential for social Cohesion.

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Jane Baker's avatar

You miserable cow.

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Jim Sanders's avatar

I have learned to let those type experiences be like me carrying a Geiger counter and detecting poisonous radiation warning me not a healthy place. Thus, I'm grateful for the warnings and just move on.

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Susan OBrien's avatar

Love your style of writing. It compels close continuing attention to the unraveling thought. So glad you included all of the lyrics of “I Am a Rock.” One of my personal favorites.

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Jane Baker's avatar

I first heard that song about five years ago and was knocked out because it's ABOUT ME. Totally. As is THE FOOL ON THE HILL by Sir Paul MacCartney. Yet both were written in the 1960s. But I can be guilty of enjoying what the Americans call a 'pity party' my late Mum would snap me out of it and put me to some work to get on with. And as regards social interactions at least half the fault is mine. But it's still a valid point that if your offer to share is politely declined in some way it identifies you as 'the bad guy'.

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Jim Sanders's avatar

Long story about dark time I heard it and immediately loved it. However, for me it was a lie. I still felt pain and sometimes cried.

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Dave Conant - MO's avatar

I too went through a period of time when Simon and Garfunkel were the soundtrack of my life, and I learned a lot about myself and the people around me.

Now, although I avoid intruding on other people's lives uninvited, I prefer Jesse Colin Young's sentiment in the Youngbloods' tune - "come on people now, smile on your brother, everybody get together, try and love one another right now." I may never have a soul mate, but I am blessed with friends and family who I like and trust.

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